My December.
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
This is my December
These are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending
This is all I need
And I Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things that I said to you
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
Ahhhhh
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
Give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to
Great song eh? My December by linkin park. Love it.
Pretty much sums up shit dosent it? Well, I chose this song to be put up cause its December and it sorta fits in with the forgiveness thing. Its Hari Raya after all. But this song also sucks because of the regrets it talks about.
No regrets, they dont work. They only hurt.
Tmr, I gonna have my hair cut and go take some pictures. Got my SLR working. Great. anyone volunteer to be model? Dint think so.
Personally, I like december altho its sort of gloomy.
December is the time when you look back. When you laugh at the foolish acts you have done in the year. I bet I'll be laughing my ass off. Its a time to maybe give yourself a pat on your back or a kick up your ass. Its a time where the weather is wet and the time when people go silly shopping. Its the time when you go to christmas parties and the time where you laugh at people who throw up after liberal amounts of alcohol. Its the most important time of the football season in europe where we can predict the winners already. Its the time where we look forward to presents and the reckoning of the Chinese New Year where we get money and stuff. Its the time where there is no school and we just relax. Its the time where every one is in the romantic mood.Its the time where bad deeds are forgiven and the shit that happened are forgotten.
Its the time where the Qian-miester enjoys alot. This is my December.
Goodnight everyone.
I don't want nobody
Nobody don't want me
I'm so sad, so lonely
But I've always landed on my feet
Friday, November 28, 2003
Thursday, November 27, 2003
Live From the Madhouse.
Hello everybody. Hope your day so far has been great.
No entry yesterday, reformatting my computer, but it still aint working well, i gonna send it to the surgeons. i reckon it has RAM cancer.
Just came back from macdonalds. Hmm, ate macdonalds today, when ever I eat macdonalds, you can bet something aint right. and yea, but I aint gonna disclose it. You know I wont. :] But at least I had company. Went with my brother, EL Hadji Dwarf and my Shrink.
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I let it go and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do I trust none and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
Who has answers? call me. Thanks
I'm a young man with very serious issues to sort up(wahahha!!)
Will blog again later in the night. Right now, wanna play WInning 11 with my brother and shrink.
When i look into your eyes. There's nothing there to see. Nothing but my own mistakes , staring back at me.
Hello everybody. Hope your day so far has been great.
No entry yesterday, reformatting my computer, but it still aint working well, i gonna send it to the surgeons. i reckon it has RAM cancer.
Just came back from macdonalds. Hmm, ate macdonalds today, when ever I eat macdonalds, you can bet something aint right. and yea, but I aint gonna disclose it. You know I wont. :] But at least I had company. Went with my brother, EL Hadji Dwarf and my Shrink.
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give into sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I let it go and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do I trust none and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
Who has answers? call me. Thanks
I'm a young man with very serious issues to sort up(wahahha!!)
Will blog again later in the night. Right now, wanna play WInning 11 with my brother and shrink.
When i look into your eyes. There's nothing there to see. Nothing but my own mistakes , staring back at me.
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
Qian-Meister is sick.
Just watched the match. Suffering from post match trauma. No crude Inter jokes this week. Arsenal fan's should watch out. I'm on the war path. Inter 1 - HENRY 5
Ok, enough of the match. Well, truth is, I'm sick, as in flu if you get what I mean.
Just feeling very low now. I suggest no one makes joke about Inter. I mean it. Its tough being a lone ranger. No one supports Inter, no one to share the grief with. But no matter, after years of under achievement, this feels strangly familiar.(patented Inter supporter pessimist view)
Argh.......... God-damn-it. Hats off to Henry. Put on your ski hats and cover your faces inter players. We expected more. Al Zac should get fired.
Sheesh......Went to HMV today, spent lotsa time there. So many new albums, so little money. Listened to a great song by Matchbox 20, on their EP, 'when your gone' . It sounds so good, the acoustic version, totally like blown away. Pls Pls read em.
i bet you're hard to get over
i bet the moon just won't shine
i bet my hands i can stay here
i bet you need more than you mind
and i think you're so mean
i think we should try
i think i could need this in my life
and i think i'm just scared
that i know too much
i can't relate and thats a problem i'm feeling
The meaning of that song was fantastic, beatifully written...Then in the evening, dont know if you all caught it, but there was an U2 concert on TV. 'Kite' was awesome.
Something, is about to change
I can feel it coming
I think I know what it is
I am not afraid to die
I am not afraid to live
and when I'm flat on my back, I hope to feel like I did.
I know its a turn off to read lyrics, but do read it, its great. I like em, cause I feel like I'm in the same situation.
It cant go back to where we were huh? Days when you kicked water on my shoes.
P.S No inter jokes and I mean it.
The APEC pics are up, the link is on the previous post. Do go see see.
Just watched the match. Suffering from post match trauma. No crude Inter jokes this week. Arsenal fan's should watch out. I'm on the war path. Inter 1 - HENRY 5
Ok, enough of the match. Well, truth is, I'm sick, as in flu if you get what I mean.
Just feeling very low now. I suggest no one makes joke about Inter. I mean it. Its tough being a lone ranger. No one supports Inter, no one to share the grief with. But no matter, after years of under achievement, this feels strangly familiar.(patented Inter supporter pessimist view)
Argh.......... God-damn-it. Hats off to Henry. Put on your ski hats and cover your faces inter players. We expected more. Al Zac should get fired.
Sheesh......Went to HMV today, spent lotsa time there. So many new albums, so little money. Listened to a great song by Matchbox 20, on their EP, 'when your gone' . It sounds so good, the acoustic version, totally like blown away. Pls Pls read em.
i bet you're hard to get over
i bet the moon just won't shine
i bet my hands i can stay here
i bet you need more than you mind
and i think you're so mean
i think we should try
i think i could need this in my life
and i think i'm just scared
that i know too much
i can't relate and thats a problem i'm feeling
The meaning of that song was fantastic, beatifully written...Then in the evening, dont know if you all caught it, but there was an U2 concert on TV. 'Kite' was awesome.
Something, is about to change
I can feel it coming
I think I know what it is
I am not afraid to die
I am not afraid to live
and when I'm flat on my back, I hope to feel like I did.
I know its a turn off to read lyrics, but do read it, its great. I like em, cause I feel like I'm in the same situation.
It cant go back to where we were huh? Days when you kicked water on my shoes.
P.S No inter jokes and I mean it.
The APEC pics are up, the link is on the previous post. Do go see see.
Monday, November 24, 2003
Internazionale 6 - Regina 0 Big smiles :)
^Its either INTERNAZIONALE OR INTER. NOT inter-milan. There is no such thing as inter-milan. Infact, there is only 1 dominating team in Milan. Which is Internazionale.
Feeling big headed now caused we trashed the life out of Regina. Which was good. Gate receipts were given out to the bomb blast victims. Which I think is fantastic. (What is AC gonna give? I dont see anything?!?!?!) Next game is versus ARSE-nal followed by GROOVE-ventus. We gonna beat the shit out of em. Beat em to a plup. Hi, a punch, 3 points and your jersey please. Thank you very much.
Haha, ok, excuse me for the outbust. Just feeling optimistic about my favourite team's chances for the next 2 big matches. Please do pray(if you belive in it) for my team ,cause i wont(cause i dont belive). I'll just watch them beat the living day-lights out of the 2 teams of malingeers with my coke in my right hand and my jack n jill chips in my left hand. Its goodluck food, if i dont have it, inter will lose..........................
Today is sunday. When its sundays , it only means house work. I hate it with a vengence. haha. As some people put it, 'Sundays for qian is like hari raya eve'. Aptly put.
Ok, its the 3rd week of holidays. What have I completed? Nothing much really. But I did spend alot of time alone. Which is good in a sense. Its a great time to read and just feel relax. Althought sometimes the boredom can get really taxing. But of cos, there have been times where I had lotsa fun. The 2 APEC meetings had been great fun. Hanging out with my sec sch class mates were alright. Read 10 books so far, the Belgariad and Mallorean Series by Eddings ,Caught movies and stuff. Did catching up with some long lost buddies and my oldest friend. 14yrs? Yeap, 14yrs. Erm, see the revival of Inter, got some great results.... Got moderate results. Yea, on hindsight, its a great month. With hari raya coming up which I fore-see will be another time for fun. AND its the only time I'm gonna wear a baju kurung. Man, I dread the day. Met some new friends, revived times of Serangoon Samba Team.
So all in all, I gotta say, its not half bad if every month was like this. But of cos, I know it wouldnt. or maybe it just feels great compared to the previous 2 months with exams and some other stuff which was really quite taxing and stressful.
7 other things I wanna do.
1) I wanna complete my damn wall collage.
2) I wanna save some money to get my specs and watch repaired. 2 things which have great sentimental value to me.
3) I wanna god damn stop procastinating, pick up that old manual minolta and bloody take it out. its wasted in the dry box. Take the 2 other AF cams and give em to my brothers.(heart pain leh)
4) I wanna play more soccer.(need to win at serangoon more often!!)
5) Make APEC better by uping the quality of posts.
6) Have a meal at this particular place , order huge amounts of food with my bro and run like crazy after I have finnished without ever paying. (dun think it will happen tho)
7) Conquere 8 lane. (only for those in the know)
Hmm, this post is just to let you all have a peep into my holiday life so far. Its not very exciting granted, but its not too boring either. I rather not spend my hols pressing furiously on a game pad or stare at the idiot box for hours on end.
So erm, yea, I guess its time I turned in. From everybody's favourite asshole -_- , its Yi Qian wishing you all goodnight and good luck in wasting away your youth. Ciao!
P.S yo weiss, thanks fer the testimonial..wahaha (So wot? I have frienster and am proud to admit it *Muahahha* so sue me!
She's electric
She's got a family full of eccentrics
She done things I never expected
And I need more time
^Its either INTERNAZIONALE OR INTER. NOT inter-milan. There is no such thing as inter-milan. Infact, there is only 1 dominating team in Milan. Which is Internazionale.
Feeling big headed now caused we trashed the life out of Regina. Which was good. Gate receipts were given out to the bomb blast victims. Which I think is fantastic. (What is AC gonna give? I dont see anything?!?!?!) Next game is versus ARSE-nal followed by GROOVE-ventus. We gonna beat the shit out of em. Beat em to a plup. Hi, a punch, 3 points and your jersey please. Thank you very much.
Haha, ok, excuse me for the outbust. Just feeling optimistic about my favourite team's chances for the next 2 big matches. Please do pray(if you belive in it) for my team ,cause i wont(cause i dont belive). I'll just watch them beat the living day-lights out of the 2 teams of malingeers with my coke in my right hand and my jack n jill chips in my left hand. Its goodluck food, if i dont have it, inter will lose..........................
Today is sunday. When its sundays , it only means house work. I hate it with a vengence. haha. As some people put it, 'Sundays for qian is like hari raya eve'. Aptly put.
Ok, its the 3rd week of holidays. What have I completed? Nothing much really. But I did spend alot of time alone. Which is good in a sense. Its a great time to read and just feel relax. Althought sometimes the boredom can get really taxing. But of cos, there have been times where I had lotsa fun. The 2 APEC meetings had been great fun. Hanging out with my sec sch class mates were alright. Read 10 books so far, the Belgariad and Mallorean Series by Eddings ,Caught movies and stuff. Did catching up with some long lost buddies and my oldest friend. 14yrs? Yeap, 14yrs. Erm, see the revival of Inter, got some great results.... Got moderate results. Yea, on hindsight, its a great month. With hari raya coming up which I fore-see will be another time for fun. AND its the only time I'm gonna wear a baju kurung. Man, I dread the day. Met some new friends, revived times of Serangoon Samba Team.
So all in all, I gotta say, its not half bad if every month was like this. But of cos, I know it wouldnt. or maybe it just feels great compared to the previous 2 months with exams and some other stuff which was really quite taxing and stressful.
7 other things I wanna do.
1) I wanna complete my damn wall collage.
2) I wanna save some money to get my specs and watch repaired. 2 things which have great sentimental value to me.
3) I wanna god damn stop procastinating, pick up that old manual minolta and bloody take it out. its wasted in the dry box. Take the 2 other AF cams and give em to my brothers.(heart pain leh)
4) I wanna play more soccer.(need to win at serangoon more often!!)
5) Make APEC better by uping the quality of posts.
6) Have a meal at this particular place , order huge amounts of food with my bro and run like crazy after I have finnished without ever paying. (dun think it will happen tho)
7) Conquere 8 lane. (only for those in the know)
Hmm, this post is just to let you all have a peep into my holiday life so far. Its not very exciting granted, but its not too boring either. I rather not spend my hols pressing furiously on a game pad or stare at the idiot box for hours on end.
So erm, yea, I guess its time I turned in. From everybody's favourite asshole -_- , its Yi Qian wishing you all goodnight and good luck in wasting away your youth. Ciao!
P.S yo weiss, thanks fer the testimonial..wahaha (So wot? I have frienster and am proud to admit it *Muahahha* so sue me!
She's electric
She's got a family full of eccentrics
She done things I never expected
And I need more time
Sunday, November 23, 2003
Its a story of an B, an C+, 2 Cs and 1 D+
^ My grades. Whats the D you ask? Well, I dont really like the french people anyway.
Anyway, I think my results are a disgrace, but not a calamity. I didnt fail crim pro for one thing but I did expect a better contract grade. So I guess it balances out. Eh Eh! Macham Matrix sia (I believe in you Neo!!) Wahaha!
Less on results. Its all over anyway. I just wanna wish da Michael Tongkat Ali bon voyage on his trip to down under. Also to my aunt and grandma...also going to down under. Oh yea, England beat Australia in the rugby final for the uninitiated. So erm...that means erm Jonny Wilkinson rocks and the only thing Elton Flecther is Rocking is his baby and erm....yea, it means...well, it also means AUSTRALIANS FUCKING SUCKS.
Ok, I mean, look. I do like australia, hell, I've been there 2 times. But I cant stand racism. Fuck all you racist.
Ok, enuff shouting. Wokae, lets see, what did I do today? Nothing much eh? so erm. What should I talk about? Well, I could talk about yesterday. Hmm, lets see...yesterday......hmm....nothing much too. Its a boring life that I lead.
Hmm, I just dug out my old journal. Covered in dust. Phew..Flipped it open and boy...shit load of stuff came back to me..weird. After reading that 'thing' reliased some stuff have changed for the better while some stuff have mutated into my nightmares while some, stay as shitty as they were. But its great reading. It made for great reading. I mean, you laugh when you read about what you did and its so damn funny. I mean it. But then, its also sad when you reliased somethings are just not what they use to be and that you are powerless to stop it. Whoo hoo...getting emo here. Erm, I think I should stop.
Spent time with my lil bro today. Bought him out to lunch cause there was no one else to bring him. I couldnt let him starve could I? Well, he ate, I watched. Bought a lollipop fer him too. Its amazing how easy it is to make a kid happy. Manage to also bribe him with some stuff that I wont mention here. Bought him some more tidbits. Came back , watched TV and the Rugby World Cup Final while munching on those MSG laden junk food with him. It was alright. Not a bad way to spend an afternoon.
Had dinner at Kallang airport with my family and aunt. I saw something damn funny there today.
Well, Kallang Airport Food Center was packed to the brim as it always is on weekends, so of cos we had to wait for tables. ok, while we were eating, we witness a quarrel between 2 parties. Parties A and B
Party A: Eh, we were here first leh.
Party B: Says who?
Party A: Me lar, you ask that guy (*guy at other table wisely says he didnt see anything)
Party B: There, he already say dunno liao, aiyah, go away lar, we wanna eat.
Party A: Eh, brudder, dont be so unreasonable leh. (*politely)
Party B: What you say? Oi, dont any how talk leh!!!!!!! (*very angry liaoz)
Party A: When did I anyhow talk? You ask all the people around you. If they say its you who got it first, I'll let you have it. (* At this point, a brave hawker center patron(you rock man!) stood up and indicated that it was A who was there first)
Party B: Oi, you shut up(*indicates Brave Patron) You all, liars!!!!! (*shoots of a string of sub hokkien, sub english, sub chinese, sub teochew string of vulgarities. BUT, stands up and leaves.)
Party A: eh, dont scold like this please, got kids. Dont make me humiliate you (*woa, sounded like a challenge.)
Party B: Oi, my mouth leh, you cant f******* control me! C***************
Ok, what happens next? I bet your last dollar you all wont guess it. Guess what, Party A started Blowing flying kisses at B... I aint kidding...there was B freaking mad and there was A blowing kisses like he was the cupid or something. Whole damn area around them started laughing...including me and my family. In the end, B beat a hasty retreat.
I cant make head or tail of the accident. Except, perhaps, a lil humour goes a long way?!? Hmm, will leave that to you to work it out.
From me, Kingkangkong and the rest of the primate family, we hope you will tune into the next episode and plenty of bananas to eat for the rest of your lives. Goodnight every one.
Where ever it may take me. I know that life wont break me.
^ My grades. Whats the D you ask? Well, I dont really like the french people anyway.
Anyway, I think my results are a disgrace, but not a calamity. I didnt fail crim pro for one thing but I did expect a better contract grade. So I guess it balances out. Eh Eh! Macham Matrix sia (I believe in you Neo!!) Wahaha!
Less on results. Its all over anyway. I just wanna wish da Michael Tongkat Ali bon voyage on his trip to down under. Also to my aunt and grandma...also going to down under. Oh yea, England beat Australia in the rugby final for the uninitiated. So erm...that means erm Jonny Wilkinson rocks and the only thing Elton Flecther is Rocking is his baby and erm....yea, it means...well, it also means AUSTRALIANS FUCKING SUCKS.
Ok, I mean, look. I do like australia, hell, I've been there 2 times. But I cant stand racism. Fuck all you racist.
Ok, enuff shouting. Wokae, lets see, what did I do today? Nothing much eh? so erm. What should I talk about? Well, I could talk about yesterday. Hmm, lets see...yesterday......hmm....nothing much too. Its a boring life that I lead.
Hmm, I just dug out my old journal. Covered in dust. Phew..Flipped it open and boy...shit load of stuff came back to me..weird. After reading that 'thing' reliased some stuff have changed for the better while some stuff have mutated into my nightmares while some, stay as shitty as they were. But its great reading. It made for great reading. I mean, you laugh when you read about what you did and its so damn funny. I mean it. But then, its also sad when you reliased somethings are just not what they use to be and that you are powerless to stop it. Whoo hoo...getting emo here. Erm, I think I should stop.
Spent time with my lil bro today. Bought him out to lunch cause there was no one else to bring him. I couldnt let him starve could I? Well, he ate, I watched. Bought a lollipop fer him too. Its amazing how easy it is to make a kid happy. Manage to also bribe him with some stuff that I wont mention here. Bought him some more tidbits. Came back , watched TV and the Rugby World Cup Final while munching on those MSG laden junk food with him. It was alright. Not a bad way to spend an afternoon.
Had dinner at Kallang airport with my family and aunt. I saw something damn funny there today.
Well, Kallang Airport Food Center was packed to the brim as it always is on weekends, so of cos we had to wait for tables. ok, while we were eating, we witness a quarrel between 2 parties. Parties A and B
Party A: Eh, we were here first leh.
Party B: Says who?
Party A: Me lar, you ask that guy (*guy at other table wisely says he didnt see anything)
Party B: There, he already say dunno liao, aiyah, go away lar, we wanna eat.
Party A: Eh, brudder, dont be so unreasonable leh. (*politely)
Party B: What you say? Oi, dont any how talk leh!!!!!!! (*very angry liaoz)
Party A: When did I anyhow talk? You ask all the people around you. If they say its you who got it first, I'll let you have it. (* At this point, a brave hawker center patron(you rock man!) stood up and indicated that it was A who was there first)
Party B: Oi, you shut up(*indicates Brave Patron) You all, liars!!!!! (*shoots of a string of sub hokkien, sub english, sub chinese, sub teochew string of vulgarities. BUT, stands up and leaves.)
Party A: eh, dont scold like this please, got kids. Dont make me humiliate you (*woa, sounded like a challenge.)
Party B: Oi, my mouth leh, you cant f******* control me! C***************
Ok, what happens next? I bet your last dollar you all wont guess it. Guess what, Party A started Blowing flying kisses at B... I aint kidding...there was B freaking mad and there was A blowing kisses like he was the cupid or something. Whole damn area around them started laughing...including me and my family. In the end, B beat a hasty retreat.
I cant make head or tail of the accident. Except, perhaps, a lil humour goes a long way?!? Hmm, will leave that to you to work it out.
From me, Kingkangkong and the rest of the primate family, we hope you will tune into the next episode and plenty of bananas to eat for the rest of your lives. Goodnight every one.
Where ever it may take me. I know that life wont break me.
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