I walked from the bar, because all of them were laughing.
I wished upon a star, but its covered in satin.
If its hurting you, you know that its hurting me.

"you would have won it with that johan photo."

those words crushed me.

No one knew how hard I took it.

Smile. Smile.

Oppotunity lost.

all because i didnt have the measly fucking funds to get those photos developed.

and also because,

I was filled with self doubt.

I had a line up for the competition.

Johan's Leap of Faith.

Mx and Luwin in the Gentlemen's Club.

Ling's rolling stones shoot.


I was thinking,

my photos arnt that good.

competition must be stiff..



Now thinking back, I was fucking dumb.
I should just have done it.


I think i did an unjust to myself.

well. I take it as one valuable lesson learnt.

For bad photographers to flourish is for good ones to do nothing.


I also want to apologise to you.
Altho I cant afford an ixus 40. I could have won you a A400. I should have. But i didnt.
sorry.
I so wanted to.
but i didnt.
No strings attached.



aight.
I got to go now.
type in this blog again very soon.