Its not privy to just my eyes anymore.

Hahahahahha, just noticed that shit I write is open for everyone to read.
I know it is supposed to be this way, but it just hit home when i wanted to write some stuff about things that are happening lately in my head.

But then...think its safer to scribble it down in my journal...at least its safe from prying eyes.
Now, this blogging buisness, after blogging for so long, i finally relise that its a place for THOUGHTS.

Why? cause you see, people arnt interested in your daily life.
People are not interested about your relationships. Well, if they do , its either that they care or that they are just fucking nosey. Somehow I always seem to feel its the latter. Come-on, thats why people go blog hopping, to check dirt about people. But its easy to identify, people who care do tag, people who are nosey are just like ghost, come and go without a trace( or so they think).

Now, the things that i think are interesting about blogging is the personality and mentality that we can identify when we read some one's blog. But then it only applies when that person does not write about his/her life but rather his ideals and thoughts on things around him.

Of cos, interesting events are appreciated, but not the drab everyday ' i went to sch today, i hate sch' kind of variety. These kind of entries are entries which induce various degress of drowsyness or in some cases, cases of death by boredom.

Some blogs are very very interesting but some blogs are really full of nothing but S***.
Some blogs are pity collectors. These blog entries are written by people who moan about their life hoping to gather some pity and sympathy. You get those all the time. They are absolute time wasters.
Some blogs are time logs. They write nothing but what they ate for the day and what colour of underwear they have on.
Some blogs are plain shit. Ugly to look at ( obviously ripped skin without mod) and updated for the sake of being updated.
Some blogs aim to project an image to the reader which is totally different from the owner of the blog. I think this are the most difficult to detect. This kinda person is like schzioprenic and have the ability to change characters at a flick of a switch. Skilled but not admired.

Haiz, I miss the good old days when my blog was just for my own eyes albeit a few close friends. I could write about all kind of things that i like. Thats one of the reasons i have decided not to includ archives.

Relationship , friends , family, finance and my thoughts are not things that i am comfortable with sharing with people who are unknown or in worst cases known. I dont want people i hardl y know or understand to know my inner most thoughts. My weakness.....My soft spots. Its like......divulging in stuff which you normally wont talk about in the phsysical presence of the person.

My earlier posts were honest stuff. Stuff that i felt strongly for. If i aint writing it down, it does not mean that I am over stuff, its just that its no longer safe to write it here anymore. People read and talk. Sure, its my blog, but i will get into trouble for the things that I say. I am after all responsible for the comments that I make. It does not matter that its my blog. Its the comments and things written that matter.

I dont claim to churn out a perfect blog and to interest all the readers. But the point is that i enjoy blogging. Its relieves stress, gives my ideas the room it needs. It lets me write( which i like to do) and that i can share stuff that i think is interesting with my friends.

Tragic Kingdom was set up not as a private nor public blog. It was a place where my friends can learn alittle more about me and to perhaps give me alittle advice. It was supposed to be a place where i could say the stuff i had in my head with little or no fear that it may be gossiped or talked about. It was suppose to do alot of other stuff.

BUT alas, it was not to be. It was impossible to start with anyway. Thus i still find myself holding on to my journal.

Hmm......if any one ever lands his/ her hands on my journal, thats a scary thought. Thats a very scary thought.

wahahahhahaaahahaahhahahahaa. Full of shit written today. But its fun. wahahhahaha

Alright, leave you all with a song. Listening to it alot nowadays.

Its Love is only a feeling. By the Darkness. Awesome song.

The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And i knew that to you and into your life i had to get
i felt light-headed at the touch of this strangers hand
an assault my defences systematically failed to withstand

cos you came at a time
when the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
was the be all and end all

love is only a feeling
(drifting away)
when im in your arms i start believing
(its here to stay)
but love is only a feeling
Anyway

the state of elation that this union of hearts achieved
i had seen, i had touched, i had tasted and i truly believed
that the light of my life
would tear a hole through each cloud that scudded by
just to beam on you and i

Love is only a feeling
(drifting away)
when im your arms i start believing
(its here to stay)
but love is only a feeling
anyway, anyway

Love is only a feeling
(drifting away)
and we've got to stop ourselves believing
(its here to stay)
cos love is only a feeling
Anyway

Madrid. Bomb Blast.

Nothing much happened this past week in my life. APEC got kicked out in the first round of TPIS, not that we played badly and not that we played super well. I didnt think we deserved to be knocked out, but anyway, the point is that we were knocked out by our own undoing. As luwin put it: 'We didnt string 2 passes in 20 mins'

This week has been a week of news overload. Presidential elections in taiwan and malaysia. Frankly, in my opinion, those things like the elections are sort of a farce. I dont take them seriously at all. Not that i dont take those 2 countries seriously, but take a look at a taiwan parlimentary session and read the papers on the PAS and stuff, you will get what I mean.

But of cos, tragedy struck this week. This time in madrid. Killing approximately 150 people. Thats sad. I think its an inhuman and cowardly act and i think most of you will agree with me. Planting a bomb in the train system at peak hour, killing unarmed and un warned civillians. Thats not a justifiable act of politics or religion. It defies logic. Does killing achieve anything? It just cultivates hatred , nothing else.

Wait for a moment, for those who dont know what I am talking about, I think you should go buy a gun and shoot yourself. I am trying to cut down on my swearing, but then if you dont know what I am talking about, you can go fuck yourself.

But then , after i saw pictures of the spanish people marching in the streets together for a common cause, it lead me to think that there is hope after all. 8 million people crowded the streets all over the country to protest against terrorism. No, that is no typo. 8 million people marching the streets together. Think about it.

Actually, I dont know what to write about this incident. I am writing to jot down my thoughts on what had happened. I dont offer any explanation to it nor do I blame anybody for it. But for so much people to die for such an unworthy cause......its dead tragic.

But it leads me to the some singaporean youths. I am ashamed to be associated with them. I mean, its unbelievable how many youths dont know about what is happening in this world. Do they care about terrorism? I mean, of cos they know 9/ 11, but what abount madrid? Perhaps the only thing they know about madrid is that beckham plays there and that Real Madrid is a football club. Beyond that........... screw those people.

and i cant believe that they are idiots who know everything about their various taiwanese pop idols then know alittle about the things that has happened around the world.

This people just ought to be dragged out and shot.

Perhaps , I think its time young people like us take some time to see what is happening around the world. Read more papers( NOT newpaper) and watch the news(NOT ONLY sports section). I think its good preparation for the outide world. What you all think?

I feel disturbed about all this things that are happening. New York, Bali and now madrid. Did invading iraq help? Leave you to think about it.

Goodnight everyone.

P.S in light of all the shit happening around the world, perhaps young singaporeans should stop whinning about the life we have.