Zam Zam. The sequel.

Finnished my Ipod selling at last. Azhar( supervisor) treated me, lady boss and fat-assy for lunch today. late lunch at zam zam. The food was good and the jokes were good and the company was fine...cept for sim. full of crap certainly dosent come to mind when you are talking about him. More like, over-flowing-full-to-the brim-of-crap comes close, but not quite there yet.


Boys and girls, euro 2004 kicks off later in the day. Mark my words, Italy. Will go far. Finalist.

Later, going suntec. why? cause IDOL is on. Joe is taking part, me and moley going to show some support. Poor dude, fucking sister dont even care or give support.






Oh oh, he is mad. at himself. mad as in angry and mad as in mad. insane, douche.

I am feeling damn pissed(wif myself) about being upset at something which I have told myself not to be upset with or even go back too looking or even hoping.

its very fustrating that I cant do anything about it simply for the fact that I swore off it and simply put, it isnt my fucking buisness anymore. But thinking back, perhaps it wasnt my buisness to start with in the first place.

Usually, things need to be triggered to start a reaction and indeed I have been triggered and balls do i have an reaction. I dont know how to discribe this feeling.
Perhaps just plain loathing.

I'm tired of this shit. I want to snap out of it. Dont think that I did not try, if you thought that, you have sadly mistaken my friends. For sure as hell, I know as well as any single one of you know(If you have been observant at all), that I aint myself this few weeks and this aint good for me. and I hate it. this state of me.

I dont blame any one who didnt noticed that I havent been myself, its all part of my own character not to show on my face like a freaking book waiting to be read. thats for dumb fucks.. But I write, because its a source of relief to me.

If you think I'm just being childish pissing off just go soak your mother fucking head. why? cause it aint gonna help change any of your devil-may-care opinions about me since you already have a damn mindset about me which is totally fucking wrong. I dont care as it does not bother me at all. But fuck you if you think you know me. its screaming in your faces and you all cant see it. so let me put it in words since you are too thick skulled to notice.
You dont fucking know me at all. not a fucking remote small bit about me at all.. so dont you all go talk to me in those kind of know it all tones.

Very simply put, all you see, is my face while at the same time, you dont have a fucking clue to what the hell I'm thinking or what I'm gonna do next.
I dont blame any of you if you dont take me seriously, cause its the way I wanted it to be.

But fuck you, and I repeat, fuck you if you think that I'm not half as capable as you or even half as smart.
cos before your white ass knows about it, I'll have already run laps around you and screwed you up so fucking bad that you cant tell your left from your right. maybe at that time, you can cry for your mummy then. if I allow you.

I seriously dont know what they fuck you are trying to pull. But then again, I dont believe you can end me. Simply because of the fact that I'm too smart for that shit.


Your friends arnt good enough. So I helped. not because I needed too but because i wanted too. I saw it coming, this shit I'm in, but I had to help. why? you know why. Its something that I've never did for anyone but you and you know it. You freaking do know it. Dont deny it.

But still, I dont blame you. I bought it upon myself.

Now the rest of you fuckers, if you all think that I've been lead around, screw you. it just goes to show how little you know about me. Have I ever been lead?
yes, why? cause its to my advantage you idiots.
has there been any advantage to me being lead on a wild goose chase this time?
no. But still, dont condemn me as dumb. You dont qualify. come to think of it, you dont have the bottle to do it. You dont have the mettle to do it.

There has been no advantage, but there was reason. Reason that I am not gonna tell you bastards out there.
Granted it may not had been a good enough reason, but who are you to judge?
One thing that I have learned is that anything that you have said, could and would be used against you. thus I will keep my mouth shut.












there is no denying it. I'm upset. and worst part is, I'm showing it.

fuck.

This plus this, plus that plus that

$
2nd hand S5000z.......... 500
128mb xD card............ 80
55mm UV filter........... 49
55mm skylight filter..... 49
Lowepro pouch............ 60
or
Crumpler pouch........... 60
Sanyo 2300 Mah Batteries. 55
Tripod................... 50
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...equals a much poorer me...



down the drain. all my pay and ang bao down the drain...wheeeee
hmm, my accounts not bad.



so expensive. Guess I will have to stick with my cranky cell phone for 2 more months.
this camera, after all, is of great importance and use to me.



wheeeeee. I cant wait for the weekend.

I'm 19. But I feel the same. No difference leh?!

haha. thanks for all the birthday wishes, they made my day.

For those who dont know that its my birthday, its fine. That means that you guys are still in the running for the latest bday greeting prize. No problems about that.

My day was fine. A pretty relaxed bday. Nah, no partying for me. Just lunch with the chimp and dinner with family.
Chimp paid for my DOUBLE WHOPPER. its a serious case of beef overload. its really very damn filling. No joke. If you can finnish the whole damn meal, good for you!

dinner at liang kee. some cheena restruant that my grandma wanted to go too. but no problems, the food was fine. Robertson Quay. Not a bad place to chill and have a nice beer. cept that its so damn expensive. But nevermind, I dont mind paying for peace , quietness and a view.

maybe going out with shrink on saturday or something. see how things go.

I think i scrapped enough dough for a new camera.
fingers crossed.
film has becomed too expensive for me to buy and develop.

digital, here I come.
analog? erm...time for the dry box and a sachet of silicon gel!


alright. have to run. ciao people. thanks for tagging.

p.s. fn: you quoted wrongly. he didnt say its good BEEF. he said: THIS IS GOOD BURGER MAN! SO MUCH BEEF!.

I've lost my voice.

My voice is barely a croak now...sounds very funny.
thats what incessant sales talk for 4 consecutive days can do to you.

But glad that the job is over. I made some money and thats good. all good. But I aint gonna get my cash till 2 to 3 weeks later which is less good. But as ling put it " we go to school as rich f***s"

Came back late yesterday night and watched another DVD. Saving Private Ryan.
You dont realise how good a film it is till you watch it over a few times.

The opening scene of D-Day landing at normandy on 6th june 1944( werid, i was watching it on 6th june 2004!) was brutual...violent but very very spectacular. Great film. The sniper in the squad was the coolest. But he still died in the end. hahaha. He took out so many soldiers with his rifle that they had to blow him up with a tank!

I've got LOTR Return of The King VCD and I gonna watch it later. Good to have Vcds and Dvds laying around. You wont get bored.


Alrighty. Latest CD added to CD collection is Guns and Roses greatest hits.. the CD is not bad, but the packaging sucks ass to the max. To GnR fans, its not bad a CD to have if you dont mind the shit packaging.


OK. IF you all haven noticed, there is a DOUBLE WHOPPER on the BK menue...sheesh...double whopper. I gotta try that sometime soon. hahahaa

alright. I gotta run. blog a little more tonight. till then. ciao!