Adieu, for now.

all my stuff are packed.
enjoying the last few hours of civilian life that is still entilled to me.
how am I feeling?

more apprehensive than anything.
it wouldnt be so bad.
from what I heard, its damn "welfare" inside there.
I'm treating it like sunshine camp no matter what luwin says.

many thanks to those who sent farewell messages.
I'll see you guys in 14 days.

well, you guys still can sms me.
dont tag on the blog, i wouldnt know.
text me yea. 91919321.
I can bring my hp into tekong =)




a spoof. if i may. i'm in one of those moods.


Dearly beloved(imaginary girlfriend),

Its gonna be a tough 2 weeks in there.
For 14 days, I will be on the first leg of the making of me.
Yes, you read that right, a first step in the journey of fufilling of what is expected of a healthy male singaporean.
Thru the sweat, blood and tears, what the army will strive to do is to turn me into a real man.
I know that sounds tacky....but.... hmm.

For 2 weeks, I wont get to see you.
but i'm used to not seeing you. altho i loathe this feeling and situation.
It aint so bad.
like the guns and roses song,
remember the time? when i let you listen to this song while at the beach.
"its alright, its alright."

I'll spend my birthday inside.
You sent me an sms today wishing me a luck and an advance happy birthday greeting.
but you forgot that you can still wish me happy birthday while i am in there.
you could sms.
or better yet, you could call. it would make my day there. I'm sure of it.
I'll be waiting for my birthday gift.
I'll collect it when I come out for the weekend at the end of confinement.

Words cannot express how I feel about going in.
about leaving the world behind for this short period.

I'll think about you.
I'll probably think about you everyday.
I'll miss you.
I'll probably miss you everyday.

I've not printed a photo of you.
I'll not stick it on my locker door.
its just one of those things that i dont do.
Photos may fade, but memories dont.
well, maybe digital photos dont fade, but thats hardly the point is it?
In my memories, you are moving, doing stuff and smiling.
Poetry in motion.

I wont call.
I wont send an msg.
cause i wont want to bother you with me.
with lil insignificant me.
who's earning peanuts.
who's living a crap life.
no, you dont have to worry about me.
I dont want you too.

I've kept the msg you sent me today.
For encouragement.
For hope to say the least.

Take care of yourself.
like the words in "wild world"
take care of yourself.
promise me that.

you said you didnt believe in promises.
I do.
I still do.
maybe you should too.

our relationship is like a ciggarette.
It burns.
It gets shorter.
It clouds the mind.
It tears the eye.
It harms the body.
but it fills the soul.
It fills my soul.
and as twisted as it might sound, I love this.

as I once commented to luwin.
words to describe whats going on between 2 of us?
"its werid and fucked up."

hmm, maybe i should have used the word "platonic"
but i refuse.
We cant be just platonic.
maybe you can, but not me.
I'm sorry.

Well, we'll talk more when i come out.
i hope for that much.
As for now, I got to go.
I'm leaving on a ferry, dont know when i'll be back again.
I love you.
Most assurdly, I do.

Yi Qian.

Only drink the best. Sip, dont gulp.

1 shot bombay saphire.

3 cubes of ice.

top up with Tonic Water.

Garnish with a slice of lime and a dashing of powdered sugar.

yummy.




Dinner on friday went well. Food was alright.
17 of us in total.
Wrecked up a bill of 320 odd dollars at the Manhatten Fish Market.
oysters, mussels, fish and prawns. flaming platter.
Dessert at bakers inn. creme brulee. san pellegrino lemonade. waffle ice cream.

I got topped with shaving cream.
to the horror of a ang moh at bakerz inn. He shifted his chair away from me.
Courtesies of zul, dan, nick , lu and ed.
I was a mess.
But i did get my revenge.
at the same time, i achieved the look of a mad man running about dhoby gaut full of shaving cream chasing zul and lu.
But i got em in the end. all good. all good.

I had my first go on a motorbike too on friday.
its fun. abit scary tho.
nan's new bike. phantom. pretty slick.
Now I think I want one.
Maybe after national service I'll get one.
A steel horse.
Yes, i think i'll get one for recreational purposes after my national service.


Saturday was spent with my family.
Had dinner with them at a restruant dont know where.
Not bad.

After that, went trolling on orchad road.
had drinks at dubliner with jp,spence,josh and yvette.
drink drink drink.
took the night rider back.


sunday, had a soccer match at meridian JC.
I dont know how i did it. reach home at 2 but managed to get up at 730am.
Took a cab down. had my breakfast on the cab.
The cab driver kept looking at my macdonalds breakfast -_-'
stress leh.
The pitch was a fucking mess and we only had 10 players.
But we won anyway. heh.
Our opponents were NS men. Who were fitter than we were. But we were more skillful than them. heh. They apparantly were unbeaten in 4 months. To bad they were playing against a real team for the first time in 4 months.
This was probably gonna be the last time that we will play soccer together as a team.
I feel abit sad at the prospect.

After the match, all of us headed to white sands. For a meal at magic wok.
chilled at macdonalds after that.
apec had a meeting at changi airport thereafter.
had popeyes for the first time in my life. its just KFC in disguise. no great shakes in my opinion.
But we did lounge about in the viewing gallery laughing at ling and his various antics.
We laughed like crazy. People there probably thought we were off our rocker.
we probably were anyway -_-
starwars, karen, vitamins, yusff, music.
yea, we ratted on alot of people.
Ling does a convincing karen act.

Spent my day reading and resting.
It's all good.
wanted to have dinner at NYDC.
but the prospect of having dinner alone was abit daunting.
So didnt in the end.
But gonna have their potatoe salad before friday in anycase.

I think i gonna have a great time tmr.
madagascar followed by sakae sushi.
great. good. very good.
heh.

My lil drink is making me feel all warm and fuzzy.
I think I'll go read abit and head to bed.
what a great feeling.
Quiet Contenment.